buried under books

i had a dream last night where i was sitting in one of the rooms at cazenove (yes, yes, this is at wellesley - duh, where else?) studying with ginnifer goodwin - who played connie baker in the not-so-good feature, mona lisa smile, with julia roberts. i was in this room with ginnifer and she was trying to get to me because i was buried under a enormous stacks of books. i was like lying on a desk or something and she was digging, digging and digging away to get at me. then soon walks in maggie gyllenhaal with a cigarette dangling form her mouth and she watches ginnifer with great amusement as i'm still stuck way under these books.

i woke up, startled - i love books, but i don't ever want to be buried under them! and i swear to you - i have not seen mona lisa smile since it first came out in the theatres in 2003!

so where is all this coming from? i'm gonna take a guess.

with no fanfare and no big announcement, i started graduate school. there - i said it - i'm back in school. it was something in the works since last year but i chose not to say anything until i was certain about how things came together. and it did all work out but let me tell you this is one big adjustment! i have not seen so many textbooks or have had so many assigned weekly readings or papers to write in a very, very long time. but so far - a few weeks into the semester - i like my studies and i've discovered that i quite like academia. strange but true.

but i'm honestly overwhelmed by the amount of work that's required and expected of me. it's not that i can't do it, but there just always seems to be at least one more journal article to go through, one more book to reference or a paper to work on. so...i figure this is where my dream came in, right? if you were to walk in my apartment right this moment, you'll see stacks of textbooks, scholarly journals, papers, pens, highlighters and notebooks all around - they're sitting by the stacks of manga and other books i have yet to read...i don't even have time to read the latest shojo beat or sports illustrated!

i juggle both work and school so i find myself pretty tired by the end of the week. but i'm not complaining - this is a good place to be. but look out for more posts on my observations and life around school. and no more late parties, guys - i gotta hit the books.